i wear my label very proudly "Boy Loren" it has a
certain ring to it. Well, the reason why i am writing this today is that my
Ma'am and i have been on quite a journey together this past year. Let me start
from the beginning.
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| Bound by Loyalty |
It is 2012 Gay Pride in San Diego and i am
wondering around the grounds going from one booth to the next seeing if i just
had to have whatever they were selling. All the while making my way to my
favorite place in the whole festival...The Leather Realm...As i approach the
entrance it is draped in dark black plastic as to hide whatever debauchery was
going on inside. The line to get in was not long but it was always long enough
for me to day dream of what MIGHT be going on and what toys would be for sale.
Now i'm not sure why this is but every year as i approach the gate i wonder if
they will let me in, i go back to my days of being too young or too pure
and naive, i was never let in...but every year they check my ID and flag me in.
The excitement as i go through the black plastic
shroud is finally realized as i enter, half expecting to see fire shooting from
someone’s face or screams to be heard that the black plastic magically muffles
to the outside world. i get goose bumps as i wonder around from table to table
booth to booth with wide eyes looking and all the wonderful toys., as i walk my
eye catches sight of a woman dressed head to toe in Pony gear pulling what
seems to be two first time joy rides laughing and giggling as the pony pulls
them around one lap around the Realm. They halt her and she whinnies like a
good pony would after a successful yet annoying pull carrying normies who
really don't truly understand, but are there to only gawk and giggle. her
Handler comes and pets her main and she settles.
As i moved on i come across a tent with chairs
filled with onlookers some squirming with fear, others squirming with delight,
as a Domme plays with a sub that has been tied down and She is tickling him, but
not with a feather but with electricity. i quickly take my place in the
audience and i can feel the energy from the sub ebb and flow as She touches his
skin...oh i forgot to tell you I'm also an em-path or energy exchange.
As I sit watching, I'm wishing i was him, so i could feel the
sting and exchange of electricity and the smell of the Ozone that is created by
the Violet Wand that is being used. If you have ever used or had a violet wand
used on you, you would never forget the smell that this amazing piece sends
out. he squirms with every jolt and finally the Domm asks if anyone wants to
come up and play and my hand shoots up so fast, i'm even surprised. Due to my
diligence, She calls on me and i go up, She asks if i have ever played with the
wand and i eagerly state it is one of my favorite toys to play with. She hands
me the wand and i selfishly test it out on myself acting as if I need to TEST
it to be sure the strength. Getting a little of my electric fix i start
tickling the sub all over, my playing only last briefly as there are other
audience members that want their turn, so i try and hit all the spots that i
know i like and it is obvious that the sub and i have the same spots. i finish
up and the sub thanks me for my part and i walk on.
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| Kept by Love |
As i walk on i notice a booth with two of the
most beautiful woman in the place, standing behind the table. i try not to
stare but i can’t help myself, they stand behind their table with grace and
power, i edge my way to the table acting as if i am only slightly interested. i
pick up a brochure or pamphlet they have and i study it for a bit, sneaking
peaks at these two powerhouses, my intrigue building until i could not hold it
in any more and i introduced myself. Awkwardly i felt as if i was back in
school in front of the class giving a speech or biography or something i asked
what they were about and who they were. The little short black Diva known as
Domina, explained about the dungeon and what they were about as Mistress Shae
the tall light skinned Domme stood excitedly beside Domina and added comments to
Her answers. i stated that i had been in the Gay Leather community since i was
22 years old and that i was Mr. Palm Springs Leather in 2005 and since then i
have wanted to give back to my community and just have not known how to do it,
and i thought maybe i could give back to my community through service to them.
Little did i know that by these words it would start an effect that has lasted
to today. We ended our niceties and i left my number with them. As i walked away i
felt as if i may have just started something that would grow into something
REALLY big. i went home thinking how beautiful these two women were and how
strong and majestically they held themselves. i had hoped that i would be able to work
for them and be of service to my community.
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| Controlled by Passion |
A day went by and then i received
an email from Domina asking me to meet them at a local bar called "The
Local". Anxiously i went to the appointment not know what to expect. We
spoke and chatted and laughed and came to the conclusion that we were going to
be a fit. Mistress Shae immediately started the training by instructing me on proper walking protocol with Ma'am as She came to be known."One step to
the side and two steps behind", she instructed me and I followed to the
letter as we left. We said our goodbyes and i was to wait to hear from them. i
did not have to wait long as Domina called to set up an appointment with me to
go over things. From very early on it was apparent that i was chosen. As time
went on Mistress Shae dropped back and Domina took the reins. i soon came to
know how amazing this woman REALLY was, The Head Patriarch of an international
Family of about 85 individuals, with talents that have no limitations, She
rules the family with strength, love, loyalty & compassion. In the past
year i have met some amazing people that would enrich anyone's life. Talented,
brave, eclectic, passionate and some that are just downright crazy but the one
that stands out the most is Domina Angelina.
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| Held by Strength |
She has Poise, She emanates Power, She has
Beauty, Grace, Empathy and most of all, a sense of Strong Vulnerability about
Her the has enabled Her and i to become best friends. my life has become
so rich with Her in it. Wwe have gifted each other things that only true
friends share. Wwe have walked through many good and difficult things since Wwe
met, always coming out on the other side wiser and closer than before.
Ma'am has allowed me to become Her Boy,
Protector & Daddy, She has gifted me Her trust and love and Her vulnerable
little girl Angel. i could not imagine my life without Her in it. She has
brought out the Boy, Brat, Daddy and most of all the Man out in me. Her and i
connect on such a level that i thought impossible with a woman. For I am pretty
much a card carrying, or should I say crown carrying gay man....lol The thing
about Domina and i is that Wwe are fluid, Wwe are not bound by our traditional
BSDM lifestyle, although Wwe are heavy into protocol, She being who She is can
pave Her own way.
One thing i forgot to mention that i never
expected and still have a hard time wrapping my head around, is that because i
am Her boy, i hold a lot of responsibility for Her and the Family, this is an
honor i never in a million years would have thought i would have. i am one of
the luckiest guys i know to have a beautiful and talented Ma'am and be Her
sidekick to help and love this family. WOW
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| Lead by Integrity |
i'm writing this today as it is Oour 1 year
anniversary and i am not one to write my feelings down , but She has impacted
my life so much that i am honoring Her with this beautiful tale of love and devotion.
Thank You Ma'am
Happy Anniversary
In Love and Devotion Your Boy Loren
