Promise Yourself

Promise yourself to be so strong that nothing can disturb your of mind. Look at the sunny side of everything and make your optimism come true. Think only of your best work, work only for the best, and expect only the best. Forget the mistakes of the past and press on to the greater achievements of the future. Give so much time to the improvement of yourself that you have no time to criticize others. Live in the faith that the whole world is on your side so long As you are true to the best that is in you!

Christian D. Larson

I am a Miracle

January 1, 2011


The central fact of our lives today is the absolute certainty that our Creator has entered into our hearts and lives in a way which is indeed miraculous. He has commenced to accomplish those things for us which we could never do by ourselves. The Big Book , p. 25

This truly is a fact in my life today, and a real miracle. I have always believed in God, but could never put that belief meaningfully into my life. Today, because of My Program, I now trust and rely on God, as I understand Him; I am clean today because of that! Learning to trust and rely on God was something I could never have done alone. I now believe in miracles because I am one!

The Book of Daily Reflections

Decisions

Sitting here at 1:09 am tired but not being able to sleep as a result of some major decisions that I have to make. Ones that ultimately can result in either my Success or Failure.
I am faced with the thought of once again not being good enough for a job, or not being able to complete tasks given to me, I feel like a friggin idiot and stupid. I have been struggling with my job for some time now and it has come to a point that I cannot do my job and there is no place for me to grow. The people in my company are amazing and have helped me through a lot of struggles. I guess my question is: When is enough, enough?  I was on the phone with my sister and we prayed to God that he would give me the strength to walk through this, now I totally have been through much worse and much harder things, but in the past I could always walk through it numb, I would use drugs or sex to help me through the rough times and I would not have to feel anything. Today I have been clean for two and a half years and I don’t have that choice. I Choose NOT to put drugs in my body to numb the fear and pain.  I am so scared that I am going to be older and still be a failure, I am afraid that I will never find my passion.  I feel like there are so many directions that I could take and I am frozen with fear. What happens if I pick wrong, what happens if I fail at that too, what happens if I cant do it or I quit. What will people think of me? What do they think of me now?  God there are so many questions and doubts that I am paralyzed with fear.
I just needed to write these thoughts down before I exploded.

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I will miss you my friend

My Friend

 

Joe Potter

We are so much more than our thoughts, feelings, and perceptions. Finding peace 

is an inward-journey that yields incredible outward-results. I can help you with that journey.

www.inwardhealing.com

More about my friend and the way he touched people...this is from his website "Inward Healing"

Joe Potter is not your traditional psychic healer. He was born with the gift of empathy and learned very quickly to deny it and treat it as a dysfunction instead of a gift. At a very early age, he was able to sense peoples’ emotional states and even received visions of the events that had changed their lives.

In an effort to avoid the meta-physics, Joe opted for studying the physical world, instead. Attending the University of Florida and the University of South Florida, he graduated cum laude with a degree in Engineering. From there he was immediately recruited into the technology world of IBM in Bethesda, Maryland and spent many years in the “dot.com” industry. He held several positions in that industry: Technical Support, Developer, Project Manager, Business Development; but his favorite, by far, was his work as a Course Developer and Instructor.  Possessing the gift to impart knowledge in a language easily understood by audiences of all levels, he shined while his students excelled.

By the late 1990’s, Joe had accumulated a net worth that was not uncommon for “dot.com” workers of that time. He was “living the dream”, replete with all the material trappings that seemed to define success. Yet, something was missing and Joe was feeling the pull to make a change. His heart was speaking to him and he didn’t listen. Inevitably, his "dot.com" world came crashing down and, still ignoring his heart’s desire, he jumped from technology into the world of mortgages. Joe had more lessons to learn as he embarked on his second career. Although he was once again dubbed a “material” success, he felt empty and knew there was more to life. His spiritual well-being and personal happiness were on the verge of extinction. Joe entered what he calls his “Dark Night of the Soul” (see Dark Night of the Soul by St. John of the Cross)

In an effort to find himself, he turned to workshops, retreats, and therapy. Though they were helpful, none of them were giving him the answers he needed. Through a series of synchronistic events, Joe found himself spending a month as a live-in student of world renowned teacher/healer, Zeffi Keffalla in Sedona, Arizona. There he “re-” learned that he could only find the answers he was searching for by looking within himself.

It was during that month that he was re-introduced to the world of healing and intuition; finally connecting with his life’s purpose. Joe’s awakening was so profound that he could no longer deny his calling. He promptly gave up his mortgage business in San Francisco, and moved to Sedona to practice as a psychic; conducting readings, healing, and spiritual coaching. He fully immersed himself in the Sedona energy and worked at the famed Center for the New Age. More recently, Joe was led to Los Angeles, California where he continues his spiritual journey and work as a psychic healer.

Joe recently worked full-time at a transitional living program in Hollywood, CA where he worked with homeless 18 to 24 year-old clients who were dealing with major life challenges; including histories of sexual, physical, or emotional abuse, HIV, and various addictions.  He holds a Master's in Spiritual Psychology from the University of Santa Monica.  Joe has been teaching professionally for over 15 years and has spent several years as a spiritual life coach, counselor, and healer.  In addition, he has extensive experience in working one-on-one with clients, and in creating and facilitating workshops and classes for up to 300 people.  He also sits on the board of directors of Wellness Works (www.wellnessworksglendale.org), a healing center in Glendale, CA.  Joe is now on a journey that includes workshops, writings, healing, and ever-changing travels into the work of helping others find their own spiritual centers.

"I had a block in my life for the last two years. All the therapy, medicine, and advice from friends changed nothing. Until I saw Joseph. Within one minute he read my cards and my life was suddenly displayed in a way so precise, that I could swear he must have read my autobiography. Impressive. Stunning. Accurate. Joseph is a compassionate, intense and accurate healer. One reading and my life changed. It was unbelievable."

I WILL MISS YOU MY FRIEND YOU WERE THERE WHEN AI STARTED MY JOURNEY AND YOU WILL BE THERE WHEN I FINISH IT.

 Joe Potter & his Lover Ken Zahner

What I Want?

I have to say that right off the bat I want to tell you about all the monetary things I want, the car, the house, the boyfriend, the best group of friends and so on, but in reality if I were to really sit back and have to think of the things I want most in this lifetime, I guess one of them would be, my memory, as I am getting older I realize that my remembering the ordinary stuff does not come easy anymore. Like remembering how to do a particular action at my work, sometimes I have to ask 5 and 6 times depending on the stretch of time in between performing this action on how to do it or who to contact or what process comes next. I know I get frustrated and I know my boss get frustrated too but what can I do other then, perform the job well and move on, dreading the next request or job.  I live in constant fear that I am going to fail one to many times or need that extra little help remembering a process one to many times and I am going to get fired. The funny thing is, is that if you ask me at any given time what is in my house, I could probably go room by room and name almost everything in that room including what is in the drawers and cabinets.  My partner calls it my "Magic Eyes" and I guess it is kind of true....can't remember someones name I have known for years and or had relations with, but after a short walk through  I could probably tell you where you put your keys "IF" I have seen them first of course even briefly. Weird huh?

Getting back to the point of the matter' it is not the physical things I want, it is the memories, the emotions, the spiritualness and the peace of mind that I look and long for. Holding on to those things is more important than any car or house or piece of furniture I will ever have.

Below is a little bit of info on memory, I am the sensory type....What type are ? 

Please feel free to comment on this blog...Thanks  -L-

Memory processes

BELOW IS AN EXPLANATION FROM WIKIPEDIA ON MEMORY PROCESSES

Processes

From an information processing perspective there are three main stages in the formation and retrieval of memory:

§  Encoding or registration (receiving, processing and combining of received information)

§  Storage (creation of a permanent record of the encoded information)

§  Retrieval, recall or recollection (calling back the stored information in response to some cue for use in a process or activity)

Sensory memory

Main article: Sensory memory

Sensory memory corresponds approximately to the initial 200–500 milliseconds after an item is perceived. The ability to look at an item, and remember what it looked like with just a second of observation, or memorization, is an example of sensory memory. With very short presentations, participants often report that they seem to "see" more than they can actually report. The first experiments exploring this form of sensory memory were conducted by George Sperling (1960) using the "partial report paradigm". Subjects were presented with a grid of 12 letters, arranged into three rows of four. After a brief presentation, subjects were then played either a high, medium or low tone, cuing them which of the rows to report. Based on these partial report experiments, Sperling was able to show that the capacity of sensory memory was approximately 12 items, but that it degraded very quickly (within a few hundred milliseconds). Because this form of memory degrades so quickly, participants would see the display, but be unable to report all of the items (12 in the "whole report" procedure) before they decayed. This type of memory cannot be prolonged via rehearsal.

Short-term

Main article: Short-term memory

Short-term memory allows recall for a period of several seconds to a minute without rehearsal. Its capacity is also very limited: George A. Miller (1956), when working at Bell Laboratories, conducted experiments showing that the store of short-term memory was 7±2 items (the title of his famous paper, "The magical number 7±2"). Modern estimates of the capacity of short-term memory are lower, typically on the order of 4–5 items,^[1] however, memory capacity can be increased through a process calledchunking.^{[citation needed]} For example, in recalling a ten-digit telephone number, a person could chunk the digits into three groups: first, the area code (such as 215), then a three-digit chunk (123) and lastly a four-digit chunk (4567). This method of remembering telephone numbers is far more effective than attempting to remember a string of 10 digits; this is because we are able to chunk the information into meaningful groups of numbers. Herbert Simon showed that the ideal size for chunking letters and numbers, meaningful or not, was three.^{[citation needed]} This may be reflected in some countries in the tendency to remember telephone numbers as several chunks of three numbers with the final four-number groups, generally broken down into two groups of two.

Short-term memory is believed to rely mostly on an acoustic code for storing information, and to a lesser extent a visual code. Conrad (1964)^[2] found that test subjects had more difficulty recalling collections of words that were acoustically similar (e.g. dog, hog, fog, bog, log).

However, some individuals have been reported to be able to remember large amounts of information, quickly, and be able to recall that information in seconds.^{[citation needed]}

Long-term

Main article: Long-term memory

The storage in sensory memory and short-term memory generally have a strictly limited capacity and duration, which means that information is available only for a certain period of time, but is not retained indefinitely. By contrast, long-term memory can store much larger quantities of information for potentially unlimited duration (sometimes a whole life span). Its capacity is immeasurably large. For example, given a random seven-digit number we may remember it for only a few seconds before forgetting, suggesting it was stored in our short-term memory. On the other hand, we can remember telephone numbers for many years through repetition; this information is said to be stored in long-term memory.

While short-term memory encodes information acoustically, long-term memory encodes it semantically ^{[citation needed]}: Baddeley (1966)^[3] discovered that after 20 minutes, test subjects had the most difficulty recalling a collection of words that had similar meanings (e.g. big, large, great, huge).

Short-term memory is supported by transient patterns of neuronal communication, dependent on regions of the frontal lobe (especially dorsolateral prefrontal cortex) and the parietal lobe. Long-term memories, on the other hand, are maintained by more stable and permanent changes in neural connections widely spread throughout the brain. The hippocampus is essential (for learning new information) to the consolidation of information from short-term to long-term memory, although it does not seem to store information itself. Without the hippocampus, new memories are unable to be stored into long-term memory, and there will be a very short attention span. Furthermore, it may be involved in changing neural connections for a period of three months or more after the initial learning. One of the primary functions of sleep is thought to be improving consolidation of information, as several studies have demonstrated that memory depends on getting sufficient sleep between training and test. Additionally, data obtained from neuroimaging studies have shown activation patterns in the sleeping brain which mirror those recorded during the learning of tasks from the previous day, suggesting that new memories may be solidified through such rehearsal.